We are buying a home. So much floods my heart and mind as I write that down…. I mean it’s a reality now that brings so much excitement and fear through the entire process. At one moment you’re jumping for joy and the next you’re almost in the fetal position reminding yourself that it’s all going to be okay.
It’s been a long and short process (ironic and perfect), but if anything I’ve learned a deep lesson in what I often consider “wise decisions.” We have been looking for a home for several months now, it’s been on our list of family plans (you know the one with all the goals you make after you get married and before life kicks in). With having two dogs and wanting to really enjoy our home without the stipulations of renting it has been time (emphasis on two dogs with no yard…eek!). On one of our house hunting trips we came across a townhome in one of the areas we really wanted to move to. It was beautiful….seriously gorgeous. Having pretty much everything on our wish list and being in the price range we could afford, we had to jump on it! There wasn’t much of a backyard nor was there a room in the basement as we had hoped for guests, but nonetheless it really was the best home we had seen so far. Did I mention the price was right??
After some discussion we decided to put an offer on the home. Mike wasn’t fully settled, but I reminded him it was a really wise decision and we didn’t want to go completely out of our budget (you know voice of reason stuff). We told my parents and waited to hear back….we didn’t get it.
I wasn’t sad. I had talked to my dad and he reminded me of some things that we had prayed for and it wasn’t a townhome or a small yard….nor was it a practical decision. Truth is I was extremely afraid (and still am as we complete our closing process!). I was afraid that the miracle we were praying for wasn’t going to happen, and completely masked it by being wise.
I will note there is a difference in wisdom and fear – but man how many decisions are made really out of fear but we dress them up as wisdom? The crazy and wonderful thing is we didn’t get that home or the next one (I will share that soon)…but our miracle home is exactly what we want AND need.
What decisions are you making that keep you from really stepping out in faith? I’d love to know and encourage you!