Hubs and I are in Georgia for a few days at the Catalyst Conference. I was torn about leaving love bug home with grandma (but my mom’s arms are the safest anyone could be in). The break has been much needed and it’s been much sweeter to focus on hubs and us…and myself. I’ve been running a little too hard, and this break is beyond timely. When it comes to being in youth ministry our hearts are on auto when it comes to our kids…we don’t have much time to sit down and soak in what God has for us individually…then today happened.
The theme of the conference is known, and how each of us have an innate desire to be known and embraced for who we are or what we create ourselves to be. Can you relate? Whether it’s known at your job for your work ethic, online for your humor, or all around – we all like to be known for something. In listening to speaker after speaker I couldn’t stop writing in my journal what I heard…my hand hurts! I was just a sponge soaking it in. But the thing I soaked in the most was Who knows me. I know even in writing this it doesn’t make sense to some of you…but stay with me.
As you know The Blue Swallow is my labor of love…my baby…my dream. I have many dreams, but this encompasses it all in so many ways. Entering into any startup or facing your dream, it really feels impossible. I’ve been beating myself up and have had an attitude of defeat, because IT JUST DOESN’T LOOK LIKE “THEIRS!” I am not making items fast enough, I don’t have time, I don’t have enough followers, is anyone even reading this blog? I seriously say these things to God and He has repeatedly said the same thing: